No.153511
around the time 2 am hits, if im not asleep, i sometimes experience bad bouts of panic where any dark hallway, doorframe, mirror, or sudden sound causes some deep, awful dread within me. Also, any kind of reversed audio, even if it would otherwise sound pleasant or interesting. Things in the corners of my eyes start to resemble faces or figures (until I look at them and realize/remember that they are not) and for some reason certain words (hypervigilant, hunger, beak, hunted, agony, for example, words with kind of primal connotations) cause this feeling to kind of spike. At its worst I'll end up staring at a doorway and literally imagining things like a large, dark mummified hand coming around the corner. If I'm leaving a dark place I often imagine something yanking me from behind and pulling me back into the darkness. Sometimes I think about how I'd just break down and probably die if there actually WERE some kind of creature and it, for example, screamed. I'm generally awash with this feeling that I'm being actively hunted by something deeply and unspeakably evil.
Is this paranoid schizophrenia, autism, or sleep deprivation?
No.153512
I wish I was scared of monsters instead of real life situations again
time reversal machine when
No.153514
>>153513this gyate is scarier than all of what i described btw
No.153516
I had the same thing to happen to me through 0 years old to like 20 but when after going through a series of nightmares where i got hunted down by a shadowman lasting several nights (the dream was continuous, also i think it was sleep paralysis inducing) i grew too desensitized to it and stopped caring or maybe it actually stole my soul or something
>>153512so trve
No.153518
What if all binters have dormant schizophrenia though
No.153519
>>153512basically im fearless in life and my pursuits and endeavors. i know im gonna be okay because old black ladies often tell me i'm destined for greatness so i think my only real threat in life are gay rapists and satan's army or other evil supernatural beings
>>153516scary
No.153521
>>153518it's just psychotic episodes caused by autism
No.153525
Try to pray before going to bed algo.
No.153531
>>153511ur a pussy b thats ok
No.153536
>>153525I PLAYED portal2 b4 going 2 sleep drunk n i was still so smart